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[unfoggedlotus]

"He wants us to fuck?" Ren asks with a chuckle, opening the microwave.

[fogbornphantom]

"He gave me incredibly detailed advice on how to ensure it's not a clusterfuck of poor choices." He'll go ahead and take the food, since Ren was so kind as to open the microwave. "That includes advice for the both of us, by the way, as well as certain recommendations for how to ease into things."

[unfoggedlotus]

"Well, that's...helpful, I guess." Ren watches like a hawk as Goro takes his food out. "Don't wanna whole cluster of people to fuck during our first time."

[fogbornphantom]

"There's no one else for me." Hum de dum, time to go take a place at the living room table. They can sit down and... snuggle, perhaps? As they walk, though, his voice takes on a slightly more sheepish tone. "Although, ah... he advised that I should perhaps be on the receiving end when we make it that far." God, that feels so weird to admit out loud. "But we can figure out a comfortable pace as we go. ...I certainly wouldn't be opposed to covering you in kisses."

He winks. How bold.

[unfoggedlotus]

Ren snorts, lighthearted -- he can't help it. "Assigned bottom by an alternate universe version of your boyfriend," he teases, lightly. "I can see it, though. Less to think about in some ways, I guess. And you do too much of that already sometimes." A kiss as they settle onto the couch. "When we decide to do it, I'm sure we'll figure it out. But you can cover me in kisses in appropriate spots anytime."

[fogbornphantom]

He'll give Ren a little kiss on the cheek just for that. "As long as you're comfortable with it." Granted, he seems to be? The idea amused him, and... damn it. He's just proving Ren's point by overthinking again. Well, just for that, he'll take a few bites of his food to occupy himself that way.

Even reheated, Ren's cooking is lovely. He makes a pleased little hum. "But I think even adjusting to other forms of intimacy would be a good start. Hands and... well, actually, the other Ren had some very detailed advice regarding your 'snake charming.'"

Here, he'll take a pause in his eating to open his phone to the start of the relevant part of the conversation, including some rather frank advice for Ren specifically.

[unfoggedlotus]

Ren blinks while he's reading the texts. "That sure is...detailed advice."

[fogbornphantom]

"...He's been sexually active since he was younger than you, so he's. Experienced, let's just say." But, yes. It is incredibly detailed advice, and it's okay to feel awkward. "To be honest, it's a lot for me, too. I've been... repressed, and knowing that you're willing to take these steps with me is helping, but above all else, your comfort is what truly matters to me."

[unfoggedlotus]

A laugh huffs out of his chest, and Ren isn't entirely sure why it comes out -- maybe the shock from the "sexually active younger than you" bit? "You being repressed is an understatement," he pokes Goro's cheek.

[fogbornphantom]

"...A part of it's due to my early childhood." He stares down at his food, taking a nibble just to ground himself. "I learned what sex was at a very young age, but the associations weren't... positive. My mother and her clients. Knowing how much of a toll it took on her..."

He needs to stop for a second, steady his breathing. Just... ground himself.

"And living with my family... I just didn't want my sister to end up as I was. So whenever I had to relieve myself, I'd do it in solitude, and I'd try to keep quiet, even when nobody else was there. It wasn't healthy how much I fretted over everything."

[unfoggedlotus]

"I know," Ren says, gently, hugging him. "We'll work on it together. When we're ready."

...The time jump may be affecting him more than he's willing to admit, here. Goro's had a whole two months to readjust to his sexuality and it's thrown him off a bit. Went to sleep with his boyfriend still a blushing virgin, woke up with him still a virgin but much less blushing. Ren's trying to support him all he can, he swears, but sometimes he feels...inadequate, like he's only doing more harm, like the day he arrived in Tokyo before meeting Goro for the first time. He doesn't know what to do for Goro. And that scares him.

[fogbornphantom]

He goes a little limp at the touch. It's so much. Even if some of this is retreaded ground, it's still a lingering chain he still has to break. "If it's you... it'll be all right. I can reclaim the part of me that was tainted by everything that happened when I was so small. We can make it our own. Because I love you so much, Ren... and that means all of you."

Right. Food. He should... take a few more bites. The talk is helping. Communication is important.

"But I'm sorry if I'm coming on too strong. It's that damn gay chicken game. I felt so ashamed. Nothing happened, and rationally, I know it was just my body reacting to evocative words. I just hated that it happened when I missed you so much... but that doesn't mean we need to rush. I suppose I'm just anxious."

[unfoggedlotus]

A kiss to the side of Goro’s head. Ren just holds him, for a moment.

[fogbornphantom]

Sometimes that's all it takes to ground him. It's calming enough for him to resume eating, simply enjoying the comfort of his boyfriend's arm around him. Then he sighs, soft as a whisper. "Just having you with me means so much. I don't feel so lost now..."

He can breathe. It's not a dream. Ren's here. It's okay.

"But I know it's probably difficult, too. What was a few hours for you was so much more for me. I'd like to think I had it together when we left Isshiki-san's Palace. Now, I'm not so sure." There's a weak little laugh. He's aware that he's kind of unraveled in ways he wouldn't even think to under normal circumstances.

[unfoggedlotus]

Ren...all his words have sorta left him. He's never been the chattiest guy ever...he can't launch into inspirational speeches on a dime like Goro can. Wakaba's Palace was...a lot. It feels weird to be ripped from their lives in the middle of all of it. Disorienting and strange and lonely.

Ren just holds his boyfriend closer, tighter.

[fogbornphantom]

"You've done a lot to support me since we reunited, Ren. Is there anything I can do for you?" He'll rest his forehead against Ren's, just trying to be close. Supportive. Funny how things went from lighthearted snark to this.

[unfoggedlotus]

"Rest," Ren croaks, open and honest, tucking Goro's face against his neck. "Take a break." He's not one to talk, since he is, at the end of the day, an adrenaline junkie too...but sometimes he wishes Goro would just sit and let things come to them.

[fogbornphantom]

"I am trying." Ah, give him a moment. He should... also finish his meal. Some more bites come before he speaks again. "The movie— That was a start. Something with no bearing on any responsibilities. But I'll try to... well, take it easy. As best I can, at any rate. And if we both end up needing a day off, several people have volunteered to help take care of the kids."

But perhaps not right away. They still need to adjust to this new status quo. Ren is a new part of their lives.

[unfoggedlotus]

“I’ll catch up to you yet,” Ren promises, quiet, squeezing Goro. “Backup is good. But you’re still sleeping in, Mister!”

[fogbornphantom]

"Well, I'll likely sleep better if I'm holding you close." Here, he'll reciprocate with a squeeze of his own. "Though I wouldn't be surprised if Magpie sends a late night text. Or twelve. If you think I have sleeping problems, just you wait..."

[unfoggedlotus]

"Why are all Akechis insomniacs," Ren grumbles, but it's lighthearted -- he does know the real reason. "Maybe we should invite him over for cuddles."

[fogbornphantom]

"We have engaged in purely platonic cuddles in the past, but he did so in his sleep. I'm not sure how comfortable he'd be with the idea of knowingly doing so..."

It wouldn't be a bad idea. Having the comfort of other people would certainly do wonders, he's sure. "I'd probably have to be in the middle, if only because I'm the one who's dealt with his barbs the longest."

[unfoggedlotus]

"We'll have to work on him a bit more," Ren nods, understanding. "Still...cuddle piles are good."

[fogbornphantom]

"I think he'd be surprised that you're so willing to include him. Magpie had the ridiculous idea that I would abandon him now that you're here." Hmm, just a few bites left now. "We'll just have to show him that our love doesn't undermine our ability to form connections with others."

[unfoggedlotus]

"Wouldn't be good wildcards if we let that happen, would we," Ren jokes. Good, he's eating the last of his food. Ren watches like a hawk (no, not that one) to make sure his boyfriend is eating.